Should I be Suspicious: Continued?

And texting, she took the time to completely erase her tracts by deleting her cell call and texts, and all her different emails and IMs. She had like five different accounts and was constantly changing her pwords I only have 2 and she has both of my paswords. We have been taliking about it alot and it seems that it always ends up in a fight. I feel very hurt and betrayed and can't seem to let go of this b ecause she intentionally decieved me for the first time in our relationship. It is also the first time that I dont trust her and feel secure in our relationship. She can't seem to understand that this is going to take a long time to repair the damage to the trust and faith I had in her, she is truly my soulmate and I have known that for many years, this is devastating to me.