I wnat to grind and his ?

Okay,this may seem very wierd.But i am a young boy in middle school,and i want to grab a white man in his 20s .I wnat to grind my *** hard on a ey white man in his 20s.I am not gay!I just want to do a few things with a guy,but no .I wnat to grind on him,grab his ,see him scratch his ,and smell his crotch!I wnat a white guy in his 20s! Am i gay? Am i wierd?